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I cannot believe it’s been a year since I’ve posted anything on here. Maybe it will be an annual thing… 

Nothings happend.

I am majorly obsessed with Pretty Little Liars at the moment, which is really rather inconvinient seeing as I am in the middle of my exams. Yes. Also an annual occurance.. well. More than annual. They’re often! In Ju ne it was Dharma and Greg that stole my attention away from the Sangha, Malaria and Equilibrium and Titrations. Currently, I’m half revising Glycolosis. I shan’t bore you with it. Although it is quite interesting… it’s just the drilling it into my brain that’s demeaning. Exams really are stupid. I know and my teachers know that I’ve leart the syllabus, but one slip of the mind, or silly mistake and your flying down the grades as if your a complete and utter plonker!

Medicine is still the hot topic. I have an interview coming up shortly. It would be an underestimate to say ‘I’m scared’. Doctors are meant to be friendly, sympathetic and welcoming. Which is partly why I think I’d be a good doctor. But four of them sitting in a row interogating you is just frightfull! I’m a bit baffled too. I love composing and the thought of venturing off to university to study it excites me! I could listen all day to Gershwin, Yiruma and pottering around conjuring up different melodies and rhythms on Sibelius. The thought of Studying Medicine scares me. I love my time at the hospital on Mondays, and work experience was so cool! I’m not easily grossed out by bits of body tissue flying everywhere during surgery. That’s rather exciting really. It’s just such an honour to be a doctor, to have someones life in your hands and for a patient to trust you with their most treasured possesion is remarkable. It also freaks the living daylight out of me! My strenghth has always been science. It’s hard work, but I feel it’s rewarding. Probably because most of my friends say ‘I could never do science’. And confusing them by showing them different equations is hilarious! But MedSchool is another league. I’m bright, but I’m so airheaded aswell. Will I come off as a complete fart in front of everyone? I really want to help people. That’s the main thing. And the main battle in the interview… it’s what everyone says. But I really do. I’d be happy doing anything I think as long as I’m aiding someone somehow. I just really want to be good at something. That one renowned thing that people will come up to me for advice on. 

Africa. I’d like to go there one day, as a missionary. I pray so often that God will guide me to his plan for me. Sometimes I wonder if I’m dodging signs of not having the most amazing grades, not being offered an interview from one university. But then, I’ve got one coming up, and my grades aren’t bad. But there’s nothing fully shining me towrads it. Towards nothing in fact. I don’t know what to do! A gap year keep flickering through my mind. I’d definatley do it if one of my freinds did it with me. Work for six months and the travel. A break from studying, school, and learning about life instead. What I want from it… How I want to use mine to help others.  I’ve really come to no colnclusion by writting this. Possibly just confusing myself even more. I  think I’ve been rather negative towards medicine throughout, but I really do like it. It’s just scary. If I were to be a doctor, personally I’d feel as if I’d reached my potential and had proven myself to myself. It’s a status of disease fighting, a knight of life and a wizard of knowledge and compassion. I would love to be a doctor I really would.

These thoughts just keep fluctuating in my mind constantly. The cost of University just adds so much pressure to pick the perfect course for yourself.

I’d better get back to Respiration. I really want to prove myself this year. I know I can do it. I just do. Anyway. I could write my thoughts in a constant cycle on here! WHAT A BORING READ for anyone who actually will. I appologise sincerely for that. This is my ‘soppy’ side. A part not many see or experience. OK, I’m going. I actually am strting to make mysell laugh at my seriousness!

BUMS.

phewff.

Al.

xxx

OH man. School. Choosing a career path. Revising. 

Life is so flipping hard sometimes! I’m probably gonna sound like a right moaner, but truth be told I don’t really care at the moment! Just eat some jelly… didn’t really help. Received, not the most promising results this week. I worked my socks off for chemistry, and I only got a c… although I was only 2 marks from a B and I did accidentally leave out a 5mark question. Even after going over my paper about 3 times! Stupid Al. Had another C in R.E also 2 marks off a B… not surprisingly though. Blanked out in that exam! Completely. Left it a bit late for that really, but only because of the chemistry! Ugh. Biology was a B. Not bad, but not good. I’m considering taking medicine, and they really expect more than that. Major freak out earlier. I heard some whimpering and screaming from outside, looked out the window and there was a person lying on the pavement and a car driving passed. Shouted to the parents and opened the door. Only to find that the boy fell off a bike and the car was just passing and stopped checking if he was ok. I only stopped shaking about 10 minutes ago! Not sure if I’d be fit for a doctor… I really can’t make my mind up! Stress!

Ugh. Being a teenager sucks sometimes. Sure your at the slimmest you probably will ever be. Can stay up as late as you want to. And use puberty as an excuse for a recipe of disasters! But, AS and A levels, School Work, your looks, boys, and choosing your career path. I wish retirement was now. 

I’ve literally just arrived home after an amazing.. half weekend in camp (had to work). I was only there for like 23hrs but unsurprisingly it still fills me with a boost of Jesus love and motivation.

Andy the talker this year shared us the letter he received from a friend when he was going through a rough time. So, I thought I’d share it with you, it’s made up of a load of verses from the Bible, but out of typing easiness I’m not going to say what the verses are after them.. of course If you really want to know, your more than welcome to ask!

I hope you like it as much as I do! Al x

Sometimes when you’re confused and floundering, understand that I know everything about you. I know when you sit down and when you rise up. I am familiar with all your ways. Even the very hairs on your head are numbered. For you were made in my image. In me you live and move and have being. For you are my offspring.

I knew you even before you were conceived. I chose you when I planned creation. You were not a mistake, for all your days are written in my book. I determined the exact time of you birth and where you would live. You are fearfully and wonderfully made. I knit you together in you’r mother’s womb. And brought you forth on the day you were born.

I have been misrepresented by those who don’t know me. I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of love. And it is my desire to lavish love on you. Simply because you are my child and I am your Father.I offer you more than your earthly Father ever could. For I am the perfect Father. Every good gift that you receive come from my hand. For I am your provider and I meet all your needs.

My plan for your future has always been filled with hope. Because I love you with everlasting love. My thoughts towards you are countless as the sand on the seashore. And I rejoice over you with singing. I will never stop doing good to you. For you are my treasured possession. I desire to establish you with all my heart and soul. And I want to show you great and marvellous things.

If you seek your heart, you will find me. Delight in me and I will give you  the desires of your heart. For it is I who gave you those desires. I am able to do more for you than you can possibly imagine. For I am your greatest encourager. I am the Father who comforts you in all your troubles. When you are broken hearted, I am close to you. As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to my heart.

One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes. And I’ll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth. I am your Father and I love you as I love my son, Jesus. For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed. He is the exact representation of my being. He came to demonstrate that I am for you, not against you. And to tell you that I am not counting your sins. Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled. His death was the ultimate expression of my love for you. I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love. If you receive the gift of my son Jesus, you receive me.

And nothing will ever separate you from my love again.

I have always been Father, and always will be Father.

All my love - always.

Dad, Almighty God

xxx

this is me and one of my best friends megan, been really amazing friends now since year fourish… she’s ten months younger than me and still taller. like jaz and georgia of angus thongs <3

1. Christian - Cristion. I belive in JESUS <3 Fe yw fy brehnin.

2. Veggeterian - no fishies or meat, never even tasted meat (have tried a fish finger)

3. Tallish… Taller than my rather short friends… AHAH. Shrimps.

4. Plays guitar, piano and percussion. Timps, Vibes and Congas are the best <3

5. Love to read - but it has to be a funny and easy read book. Sophie Kinsella - Practically perfect.

6. Mother’s reminded of me while reading Confessions of a shopahahollic. Apparently am I like Becky Bloomwood.

7. On the other hand, fairly clever. Kindof want to be a doctor… or a COMPOSOR.

8. Has a stinky brother called cai.. also has an ex called cai. That was strange.

9. Really would love to be in a garage band… I just think they’re cool. Or opt for a boyfriend in a band, and wear a t-shirt ‘I’m with the band’. SOO COOL.

10. SIARAD CYMRAEG!

11. — a pretty cool number, either looks like two flags on a golf course by the putty things. OR two giraffe heads :) Which reminds me of the most amazing saying….

12. … Favourite saying ’ That was like a giraffes fart ‘. Driving instructor always uses it. HAHA. (A giraffe is tall so when it fluffs it just goes right iver your head.. like nd idea or thought)

13. Taken Music Biology R.E. and Chemistry for AS.

14. Loves the film Angus Thongs and Perfect Snogging… mum also says I remind her of Georgia. HAH. I do love olives.

15. Food. Love italian, spanish and mexican. And would prefer a chineese takeaway to and indian. Love greek salads. Ice Cream. Strawberries and Waffers. Always wanted to try an battered marsbar!!! POPCORN. And mascapony cream! Yum. Celery is amazing.

justanothersouthernbelle:

dappledthings21:

If you played with Barbies,

Polly Pockets,

Beanie Babies,

Tamagotchi,

Slip N’ Slide,

And Satan Furbies,

Listened to the Backstreet Boys, Britney Spears, NSync and the Spice Girls

On Hit Clips, a Boom Box, or a Walkman,

Collected and traded Pokemon cards,

Wrote with Gel Pens,

Wore butterfly clips,

And Snap Bracelets,

And remember watching these guys:

You are a 90s kid.

OMG this is epic!!!

(via shoutinghisname)